12Aug/14

CBS moves from WISH to WTTV (Justice Served?)

CBS EyemarkBy now, you have probably heard the news that Tribune Company of Chicago, owners of WTTV/WXIN in Indianapolis, have signed an affiliation agreement with the CBS Television network and ending the 58 year affiliation with WISH-TV.

For starters, CBS shows such as “The Price is Right,” “The Young and The Restless,” and possibly a US version of “Keep Your Light Shining” will move from WISH-TV (channel 8) to WTTV (channel 4) as of January 1, 2015. CW programming, which is currently on WTTV will move to WTTV’s digital subchannel currently occupied by This TV Indianapolis.

WISH-TV logoThe main question you are probably is wondering, “Why? Why is CBS moving to WTTV?” If you remember the WISH-TV/Bright House Dispute back in October 2008, LIN and Time Warner Cable entered into an impasse during negotiations to renew retransmission consent deals for some of the group’s television stations. Bright House Networks, one of two major cable providers serving Indianapolis as well as the cable provider in Marion, negotiates retransmission consent contracts through Time Warner Cable. LIN TV requested compensation for carriage of its stations in a manner similar to the deals that cable networks have with pay television providers, as other broadcast station owners began to seek compensation from cable and satellite providers for their programming. The carriage agreement with Bright House expired on October 2, 2008.  At 12:37 a.m. on October 3, WISH-TV, WNDY (channel 23/Marion Cable 10), and Fort Wayne’s WANE-TV (channel 15/former Marion Cable 20, currently occupied by TBN) signal was removed on Bright House. It would not be until October 29 when WISH-TV and WNDY were restored to Bright House Networks systems in Grant County, Indiana (which serves Marion, Gas City, and Jonesboro), but WANE-TV’s signal wasn’t restored, which led to WISE-TV and WPTA-TV being dropped nearly two months later. At that point, I had no choice but to cancel my cable subscription to Bright House after six years and began to watch over-the-air (and eventually added AT&T’s U-Verse Internet High Speed, making it an online streaming/over-the-air hybrid).

I somehow knew what LIN TV was going to try to do at that point and to this day, basically turned Marion, Indiana upside down.

Then, incidentally, the very last post on INNewsCenter was Fox’s announcement on June 20, 2011 that it would end its affiliation with WFFT (channel 55/former Marion Cable 2, now occupied by C-SPAN) moving WISE-DT2 on August 1, 2011. Nexstar had earlier lost the Fox affiliation for WTVW (channel 7) in Evansville following a dispute with the network over retransmission consent fees that it wanted its stations to pay to the network.  WFFT has since reaffiliated with Fox on March 1, 2013.

And in a twist of fate, happens to the the very first unofficial post of the INNewsCenter revival is that CBS’s announcement yesterday that it would drop its affiliation with WISH-TV (and likely WLFI in Lafayette) and affiliate with a WTTV (and its Kokomo satellite WTTK), effective January 1, 2015. Like the reason for WFFT going independent from August 1, 2011 to February 28, 2013, and now the case with WISH-TV losing CBS is coming as CBS is aggressively seeking a higher share of retransmission earnings gained by its affiliates as part of affiliation agreements, an approach that openly irked WISH-TV’s owner LIN TV.  I would not be surprised if LIN TV would subsequently be stripped of its CBS affiliations in Lafayette (WLFI), Buffalo (WVIB) and Providence (WPRI) as well.

As for WISH-TV’s future after January 1, 2015, and here is likely what will happen:

  • WISH-TV will either become an independent station (or take the MyNetwork TV affiliation from WNDY) on January 1, 2015 as WTTV takes the CBS affiliation.
  • WISH-TV will likely replace CBS daytime primetime shows with syndicated programming on weeknights, movies on weekends.
  • WISH-TV will introduce increased local programming, including coverage of local high school and college sports.
  • WISH-TV’s focus on news and investigative programming will likely be increased should the station become independent. WISH will expanded its weekday morning newscast from 2 1/2 hours to four (from 4:30-9 a.m., and effectively cancelling the 7-8 a.m. hour on WNDY), early evening newscasts expanded from a 90-minute to two-hour block starting at 5 p.m., and an hour-long primetime newscast at 10 p.m. (currently shown on WNDY) will joined the existing 11 p.m. newscast, and its existing noon newscast will likely expand to an hour.

WTTV, on the other hand, will have news since canceling a WRTV (channel 6)-produced newscast in 2002. WTTV, upon taking the CBS affiliation will have the following newscasts, as not to compete with WXIN (channel 59/Marion Cable 11)

  • 4:30-7:00 a.m. Weekdays (WXIN currently airs a morning newscast from 4-10 a.m.)
  • 12:00-12:30 p.m. Weekdays (WXIN did have a midday newscast from 2008-2010)
  • 90 minute news block from 5-6:30 p.m. (WXIN currently has a early evening news block from 4-7:30 p.m. come September)
  • 11-11:35 p.m. (WXIN currently has a late newscast block from 10-11:30 p.m.)

Then there comes WTTV’s likely weekday schedule come January 1, 2015 as follows (many shows currently shown on WTTV could stay or move to either WXIN or WTTV-DT2:

  • 4:00 a.m. CBS Morning News
  • 4:30 a.m. “CBS 4 Morning News”
  • 7:00 a.m. CBS This Morning
  • 9:00 a.m. Judge Mathis
  • 10:00 a.m. The People’s Court of Let’s Make A Deal
  • 11:00 a.m. The Price is Right
  • 12:00 p.m. “CBS 4 News at Noon”
  • 12:30 p.m. The Young and the Restless
  • 1:30 p.m. The Bold and The Beautiful
  • 2:00 p.m. The Talk
  • 3:00 p.m. Let’s Make A Deal or The People’s Court
  • 4:00 p.m. Paternity Court or The Middle
  • 4:30 p.m. The Middle??
  • 5:00 p.m. “CBS 4 News at 5:00”
  • 5:30 p.m. “CBS 4 News at 5:30”
  • 6:00 p.m. “CBS 4 News at 6:00”
  • 6:30 p.m. CBS Evening News
  • 7:00 p.m. The Big Bang Theory
  • 7:30 p.m. Two and a Half Men
  • 8:00 p.m. CBS Prime
  • 11:00 p.m. “CBS 4 News at 11:00”
  • 11:35 p.m. The Late Show with Steven Colbert
  • 12:37 a.m. The Late Late Show with James Corden
  • 1:37 a.m. How I Met Your Mother
  • 2:07 a.m. Rules of Engagement
  • 2:37 a.m. CBS News Up To The Minute??

When WTTV joins CBS, WTTV will most likely pre-empt the network’s Saturday morning block CBS Dream Team in favor of running E/I-compliant children’s programs acquired from the syndication market and pre-empt Up To The Minute, in favor of airing syndicated programs and infomericals during the overnight hours. Once the syndicated acquired programs get dropped from WTTV’s schedule once contract commitments with syndication distributors ended, likely those blocks may begin airing.

Then comes the issue of the This TV subchannel, since that is owned by Tribune Broadcasting. One scenario is This TV could move to a new subchannel on WXIN because WTTV will likely upgrade 4.1 and 4.2 to HD and WXIN currently has Fox on 59.1 and Antenna TV on 59.2, and possibly This TV on 59.3.

Bottom line: I think WTTV is considered to be a strong CBS affiliate owing to WTTV’s former “Indiana’s Sports Station” as a college basketball hotbed and teams such as Purdue, Butler, and Indiana being longtime fixtures in the tournament, I think NCAA tournament games on WTTV will be consistently among the highest-rated programs in Indianapolis during the tournament’s run.  Unfortunately WTTV’s future late news WILL NOT serve the lead-in for Indianapolis native David Letterman’s late night talk show on CBS, the Late Show), since The Late Show with Davide Letterman’s final episode will air on WISH, not WTTV.

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22Jul/14

INNewsCenter: Five Things that will be different from the original 1999-2011 version

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I know I will be asked this as the revival of INNewsCenter approaches in November. Yet there are some things that will be different from the original version of INNewsCenter and what will be seen on the remake of INNewsCenter.

 

Just to be clear that all of INNewsCenter’s Facebook, Twitter, and YouTube pages are going to remain the same as it was before I closed INNewsCenter in 2011. I will still be administrator of the INNewsCenter revival.

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First and foremost, do expect for certain clips (as was the case for Cheryl Parker’s final WXIN-TV newscast and the American Idol 9 finale which was never uploaded to INNewsCenter’s YouTube channel), often crossing over from another Aeverine Zinn Holdings site (usually Vote for the Girls or this web site you are viewing, AvaZinn.com) or come courtesy of the company providing the prize. Some such INNewsCenter clips will be female contestants (of which are supported by Vote for The Girls) and/or someone that I went to school with makes Indiana headlines and/or as was the case with the Ashley Rheam affair (which is covered on AvaZinn.com), especially for Issues related in the Marion, Mississinewa, and Eastbrook Community School Districts, and typically seen on the Ava Zinn You Tube Channel.

Secondly, at the time of INNewsCenter’s closure, and since the very last post on the site was WFFT-TV (channel 55, former Marion cable channel 2) losing Fox (and on March 1, 2013, WFFT has re-affiliated with the network) as well as a cable television dispute that lead to dropping Bright House Networks (not because of cable TV rates in case anyone wondered, but it was due to the WISH-TV/Bright House dispute in October 2008 that lead to the repercussions of the big four Fort Wayne stations dropped) and eventually replaced with AT&T U-Verse (via internet streaming) and over-the-air hybrid. There won’t be as much montages from the original as I will be most likely have to take an indoor TV antenna, and VCR to a hotel (especially in Indianapolis and Fort Wayne, of which when I launched INNewsCenter in November 1999, only the Fort Wayne and Indianapolis markets were covered before adding the eight other markets that serve all 92 counties in Indiana.)

Third, due to my commitments with Vote for the Girls (the American version since 2010, UK/British version since 2013, and soon add the Australian version come 2015), Housing Hell (coming in 2016), family obligations (with my daughters Samantha, Tiffani, Ashli, and Tabitha and to a similar extent, my cousins – notably my cousins Patricia and Sharon), and other issues that do come up often with my friends and family, do expect INNewsCenter to have a “INNewsCenter team” that will run the web site similar to “Nightline”‘s format since 2005 after Ted Koppel retired with all posts final by yours truly.

The fourth thing that will be different from the original INNewsCenter and the revival is going to be a new, yet likely going to be a YouTube copyright issue at the end of the day. In 2008, months before the WISH-TV/Bright House dispute, I was notified as the administrator of INNewsCenter since LIN TV of Providence contacted me about using INNewsCenter’s graphical element (such as high definition pillars on clips used for 4:3 videos in 480 i as INNewsCenter will still be presenting clips in high definition when the original version upgraded to high definition/widescreen in 2007) and recently on the INNewsCenter YouTube channel asked to take down clips from WIPB-TV in Muncie, which is a bloody shame. That lead me to consider a new feature, mostly for the station owner’s interests and copyright claims — The INNewsCenter Safe Haven Policy, which allows yours truly at the station owner’s request in the event the clips be taken down from INNewsCenter’s YouTube channel and as the administrator of INNewsCenter, offer the station owner (like LIN TV of Providence or Scripps) the use of INNewsCenter’s clip(s) be uploaded to the station’s YouTube Channel (such as WISH-TV or WRTV) to be presented it was seen on the station involved. A clear example of this is from WTWO-TV in Terre Haute (watch below).

BTW, since INNewsCenter is owned and operated by Ava Zinn, the civil policies are subject to the 2-5-10-BANNED Rule, that went into effect July 4, 2014. Should a station owner request a station’s material be taken down on YouTube due to copyright, that’s an automatic 20 year BANNED/BANNED as long as the station remains on the air. Another example is after Josh Kaufman won The Voice of America 6, INNewsCenter will not be uploading anything from WTHR from July 4, 2014 until January 4, 2016 under my discretion and this applies to Vote for the Girls USA.

And last but not least, the fifth and final thing that will be different on the INNewsCenter revival is that five significantly viewed markets of Peoria/Bloomington (viewed in Terre Haute); Grand Rapids (viewed in South Bend/Elkhart); Toledo and Detroit (viewed in Fort Wayne); and Lexington KY (viewed in Louisville and Cincinnati OH) are being added to the ten markets that INNewsCenter covered during the original 1999-2011 run. When the site launched, INNewsCenter only covered Fort Wayne and Indianapolis, and in 2004 added the eight other Indiana television markets of South Bend, Evansville, Terre Haute, Lafayette, Gary (Chicago, IL), New Albany (Louisville, KY), Richmond (Dayton, OH), and Rising Sun (Cincinnati, OH).

Pretty much things will be the same on INNewsCenter when I shut the site down on June 30, 2011 and closing INNewsCenter was the biggest regret I’ve ever made. When I relaunch the INNewsCenter site on November 1, 2014 (coincidentally 15 years to the day I started the site as a junior at Mississinewa High School), it will be located at avazinn.com/innewscenter and look forward to the site having its own URL as before because INNewsCenter.net has since been taken by another owner.

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26Jun/14

CONFIRMED: Ava Zinn to revive INNewsCenter

It's officially confirmed. INNewsCenter will be returning.

It’s officially confirmed. INNewsCenter will be returning.

MARION, INDIANA – Ava Zinn announced Thursday that she is planning to relaunch the popular television news discussion site INNewsCenter.

innewscenterThe site will be debuting on November 1, 2014. The site makes a triumphant return for Zinn who launched and ran INNewsCenter from 1999-2011.

“It’s absolutely an amazing feeling to be going HOME to my old friends and colleagues and firing up the ‘Covering Indiana’s 92 Counties and Beyond … AGAIN!” Zinn said.

“I’m excited to be back to the TV news biz and with the success with Vote for the Girls, INNewsCenter makes an excellent companion,” Zinn noted. “I had a substantial following with the old INNewsCenter (1999-2011), and I’ve had a lot of questions asked about ‘What happened to INNewsCenter?’ ‘Is INNewsCenter coming back?’ In 1999, there was no American Idol, no Vote for the Worst, no smart phones, all those things. When I launched INNewsCenter with my web site that has evolved to AvaZinn.com, I attracted a cross-over audience while bringing a fresh perspective to television news and getting a woman’s perspective since I’m transitioning to a female. That same need in the market exists today as when INNewsCenter originally launched. I’m are looking forward to the same success with my seasoned expertise and appeal in this genre.”

Ava Zinn’s commitments with ‘Vote for the Girls’ since the original American version launched in April 2010 and the British counterpart launched in June 2013, reinvigorated the desire to get back on the TV news discussion biz. Zinn commented on her Facebook page, “Closing INNewsCenter on June 30, 2011 has the second biggest regret I’ve ever made in my life.”

While the original INNewsCenter ran from November 1, 1999 through June 30, 2011, the site featured changes in the television news industry from the ten markets covering Indiana’s 92 counties and significantly viewed markets in those beyond Indiana’s state line (notably Lexington, KY; Grand Rapids, MI; Toledo, OH; Rockford, IL; Detroit, and Peoria, IL in the 2010’s) and primarily Indianapolis and Fort Wayne markets, which INNewsCenter only featured from the site’s debut until 2004. Here is a look at some of INNewsCenter’s most memorable moments from the popular web site.

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05Jun/14

Ava Zinn goes strapless tops and thong panties for Vote for the Girls Loss

It’s just so hard to actually believe that it has been nearly 10 years since I officially began transitioning from male to female. Recently, as part of the Vote for the Girls Punishment following the losses on The Voice 6 and American Idol 13, Ava Zinn–yours truly– and another transgender woman named Kathi Jameson and Kellie Rock and Holly Everman are basically trading respective gender idenity roles: To coincide with the ongoing gender transitions from male to female of yours truly and Kathi, Kathi and I began to wear  strapless tops, halters, and bikinis over the summer, accompanied by Zinn not wearing a skirt or dresses as well as for the first time since my gender transition began began to wear thong panties for the summer while Kathi continues her gender transition with skits and dresses and able to wear her thong panties occasionally since she has been on HRT since 2010; meanwhile my close friend, Holly, and Kellie Rock (no relation to Bill Rock, my former colleague at Carey Services, but Kellie is the sister of my late best friend Robyn Hurd) returns the favor by binding their breasts to create a flat-chested appearance, with Holly passing as a male after Holly shaved her head after Jena Irene was announced the runner-up on American Idol, thus Holly appears to be more masculine and wearing male clothing and Kellie basically passing as a woman that had breast cancer who had a double mastectomy (removal of both breasts).

There is clearly a strong reaction to the Vote for the Girls USA Punishment for failure following the two losses as many of my closest friends for nearly 20 years, neighbours, and acquaintances, friends on Facebook as I announced on THIS WEB SITE and on my YouTube Channel on April 18, 2014 that I decided to auction off her virginity (that means I will have sexual intercourse for the final time as a biological male) in the biggest Vote for the Girls Punishment for Failure. In addition to the virginity auction, there is the vegetarian diet I’ve been on for nearly three months now and and yesterday just when I was about to enter my door a neighbour of mine named Randi Fansler told me I wasn’t eating right and she thought I needed meat and I tried my best to tell her no meat. It really felt like I was in a bank robbery but I decided to freeze the food in question which was lasagna with meat in the dish in the freezer and basically didn’t eat the food because it had meat and I ask someone NOT to add any meat in my food, it means exactly that. So basically, Ms. Fansler really committed a violation by trying to force a vegetarian to eat meat because she thinks “Vegetarian is wrong. Absolute BS. Since September of 2013, I have lost nearly 20 pounds and since the vegetarian diet, I have lost at most three pounds–nearly 25 pounds in all.

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If the vegetarian diet and virginity auction wasn’t the worse part, perhaps the nullification of all this is that on June 1, 2014 (exactly nine and a half years since my gender transition began, I began to wear a strapless top in public for the first time in my life. So far, I’ve gotten quite a positive reaction and the first few individuals like my fellow Mississinewa High School Class of 2001 alumnus Jennifer Dickerson and her mother, Jackie (my former supervisor at Carey Services from 2009 to 2013) were the first to see me in a strapless top after I waled out of Walmart. Then today, I began wearing my very first pair of thong panties and by looking at the strapless tops I bought and the thong panty I am wearing, I figured, “Hey, Strapless Top or Strapless dress plus a thong panty, I look like a lesbian hooker with sperm.”

Because it is a Vote for the Girls punishment, I have to wear a strapless top and wear a thong panty on occasion, the latter of which required me to “tuck and tape” or in layman’s terms to bind my gonads into what will eventually be my vagina (once my SRS is completed) and wrap the, um, “vaginal scrotol lips” around my “enlarged clitoris” to make it appear that I have female genitals–something I do occasionally. I remain identifying as female without question and gender issues, while some are still struggling with that since I came out as trans in 2003. Sure my gonads and enlarged clitoris will get extremely tender and sore when I get sexually aroused.

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19May/14

Christina Grimmie Voting information May 19 2014

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This is for the whole enchilada and one step closer to a Perfect Season in the VFTG history, folks. And this is the nearly worst The Voice of America finale in years. If Christina Grimmie wins The Voice of America tomorrow, we will be adding Jessica Meuse from American Idol 13 and Ellona Santiago from The X Factror 3 among non-winners in the VFTG Hall of Fame. Nothing can possibly be historic. So tonight, you need to stop what you’re doing and vote for the entire 14 hours. Get everyone you know to vote. And we’re providing you with some tips on how to vote the most effective way to give us the best shot at a VFTG Victory.

● If you have mobile (Sprint), you should be texting 1 to 8642 10 times. This is much faster than calling.

● If you don’t have Sprint mobile, you can dial 1-855-864-2301.

● You also get 10 votes on NBC.com/thevoice and  via Facebook, but these votes will be counted after your 2 hour window closes. So vote on Facebook later in the night once you’re done texting and calling. You only get 10 votes, so stop after 10. Calling and texting is also limited to 10 votes per voting methiod. If you live outside the US, just change your location to be from the US for a few hours and you can vote.

● You can also her performances on iTunes.com/thevoice but these downloads will count as votes will be counted. So vote on iTunes later in the night once you’re done texting and calling. You only get 1 votes, so stop after 1. If you live outside the US, just change your location to be from the US for a few hours and you can vote.

  1. Wrecking Ball
  2. Somebody That I Used to Know
  3. Can’t Help Fallilng In Love
  4. Some Nights
  5. Hide and Seek
  6. How to Love
  7. Hold On, We’re Going Home
  8. Dark Horse

● If you live on the East coast or outside the US, you can also vote during the West coast time zone (10 PM -12 AM PST) if you have an account through Skype. You can also download the Skype app on your smartphone and vote that way. This is how International fans are voting. TheVoice of America is too stupid to track where votes come from, their system is not that intelligent. International VFTGers can also use MagicJack, NetTalk, and Vonage to vote if you have any of those at home.

 

By the way, since it was mentioned on iTunes, Jake and Josh are really boring.

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09May/14

A little earlier than planned…

Pretty much official now, Ava Zinn is auctioning off her virginity.

Pretty much official now, Ava Zinn is auctioning off her virginity.

I know it may sound like I’m now doing my own porn (and seeing me as a prostitute or escort) thanks to the virginity auction of mine. Many of my friends (especially those who knew me before I began transitioning to a woman) have really been shocked since I made the announcement of my decision to auction off my virginity on April 18, 2014. It is clearly not sitting well with many of my close friends of nearly 20 years and they believe in their heart of hearts that it is not OK for me to be doing this, but after the eliminations of Malaya Watson and Jessica Meuse on American Idol, I said I would auction off my virginity and now Jessica Meuse’s elimination is reason why I decided to auction off my virginty.

Another reason why the virginity auction is now necessary is that back in 1994 when I first realized I felt more female than male first even considered this but no one knew about this. It physically pains me that I still have the male demon that needs to be released. There were times during my senior year that emotionally I was hurting so bad that I was feeling sick to my stomach to the point I almost threw up, and sometimes I just get panic attacks. Yeah, that was when I had been forced to live as a male and basically failed miserably as a biological male until I realized I made an earlier attempt to transition to the female gender in December 1995, but knowing had I came out back then, the consequences would have been a Hell of a lot different than they are now–it would not be until October 2003 when I officially came out as a transgender female.

Had this been 11 years ago, I know I would have told you this is selfish to take my own life. You know, the doctor prescribed Prozac for depression and anxiety, but those are just fancy words for “selfish.” I knew after I came out as a transgender female that had I remained a male I was going to hurt everyone who loves me (or even worse become another Jeremy Blacnhard, sex offender, or child molester). Obviously, I chose to come out and knowing that if I continued living as a male (besides keeping the male genitals for reproductive purposes since sperm banking would be a huge financial burden.)

Nearly yen years has passed since I began my gender transition, and the roadblocks like hormones, facial feminmization, sperm banking–the latter of which have kept me from transitioning anoy further (not because I’ve been smoking after a fateful prom night my senior year), but it has been like this for too long and there’s still a chance that I will never recover in Marion.

I just don’t see how I can ever have a chance at recovery and fixing everything that was broken my senior year of high school and even though I’ve been far more successful as a woman than I ever had been as a male. I think having sexual intercourse between a biological man (now a pre-op transwoman) and a biological woman, placing the biological man’s virgininty up on the auction block is a much better idea than just stay and die a slow, excruciating death. It feels like that.

I don’t want anyone to feel like this post serving as a suicide note, but more of what you’ll say “Oh, my God! Ava, you were right all along. Why did I choose not to believe you the first time?” My decision to auction off my virginity wasn’t made in haste plus feeling like this is something I have no other choice since all the other options were exhauseted and as a last resort. At this point, there’s pretty much nothing, literally nothing that my friends, family, and fans could have done (other than voting only for the female contestants on shows like American Idol, The X Factor USA, and The Voice of America–and I say thank for that as well as what eventually became VotefortheGirls.us); I know you’ve all tried your damnedest and fought so hard to help me.

I guess it’s like I don’t mean to be over dramatic, per se, but it’s like there’s one small demon inside of me that needs to go.

The only person who can help me now is… the biological woman’s highest bid on the virginity auction that will have sexual intercourse (and yes, I am a transwoman–or as the porn industry call it shemale, an offensive term that all M2F’s hate–that will insert her “male penis” or my enlarged clitoris as I call it into the biological woman’s vagina.)

I really don’t mean to hurt anyone of my friends, family or any fan reading this. Remember that I’m doing a very big favor for all transgender women, of which she should really think about before even starting estrogen therapy.

I’m doing literally no other transgender woman has ever done.

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02May/14

I’ll be a much better person, yet fear worse case scenario

Today, I’ve got something new to think about as the day my virginity auction approaches.

I'm most likely the first American transgender woman to auction off her virginity and the second after....

I’m most likely the first American transgender woman to auction off her virginity and the second after….

I am probably going to be asked this a lot, time and time again and usually by somebody judgmental “aren’t you scared to lose your virginity to a complete stranger?” I try my best to always answer truthfully, no, but I usually don’t bother to point out one giant oversight on the part of the questioner. And that is that a part of this experience does actually make me want to crawl under my bed covers for good.

That part that really physically terrifies me (I had a nightmare about this back in 1994 when I was in the sixth grade, which is the reason for this post), is the thought of posting a nude picture of myself for all to see would create backlash and ridicule. And before you jump on this as an opportunity to prove some point, let me clarify that it is not because as a transgendered woman I am ashamed, fearing jail time (and it may be true about what they say about turning first-time offenders into hardened criminals), worry no one will ever love me because I am trans, or other such BS. I fear this outcome because of primarily one reason – Society. More specifically, the majority of the LGBT community that feels entitled to loudly comment on how others conduct their lives, or do worse. I truly fear and only fear the swift and brutal social backlash that would (if not has already happened) follow my outing, even though it is a backlash I sincerely believe no one has the right to deliver.

For similar reasons, I find it very ironic when someone tells me and I first heard this when I attempted to come out to my mother as a transgender woman in 1994 (but couldn’t bring myself to do so at the time), with hope in their voice (especially my mother’s voice), “you are going to regret this.” Because I might regret this 20 years from now, but it will not be because I made a bunch of money off of something I won’t even miss. It will be because of the cruelty, entitlement, and self-righteousness of the people making such comments. They pose a real threat, as opposed to the so-called “physical and mental trauma” of losing my virginity willingly and on my terms (and years after most have had this experience).

So, think about it. If you were a transgendered woman in my position, what would you be terrified of? Deny it all you want, but it would be the same. If you happen to be one of the commentators I mentioned, or of similar mind, I suggest you think about this even more. You may think you are helping, but take it from me you really are not. Alternatively, you may be validating yourself, but you are still the same self-absorbed a**ehole. If you think about it, you are not as good as you think you are. And, without question, you are way out of line.

I absolutely love this post because I am more certain than ever that this experience will make me an exceedingly better than in years past! Here are just some of the ways how:

  1. I know first hand the sting of hateful, pitying, or righteous judgments. I also have learned that judgments never take 100 percent of the full story into consideration, and they are never ever productive. I will never judge anyone again. So future fans, lay it on me! Present friends and fans of mine, feel free to slam me and I won’t blame you one f**kin’ bit.
  2. Likewise, I will approach all with the extra empathy that I have acquired through this experience.
  3. I have learned to respect everyone’s humanity, even if you cannot manage to understand them (lord knows most people do not understand me, if not already because of my trans status).
  4. I have become quite the enthusiast for both thinking and acting outside of the box. What leads to greater progress?
  5. I have become incredibly efficient and effective at my tasks – it has not always has been easy juggling my job with Vote for the Girls, home life (which has taken a big hit since February 2014), and this auction, but this trans girl 31 years of age  does what she needs to do.
  6. I have found new causes that I care passionately about – sexual health and sexual freedom, and the health and rights of sex workers — especially transgendered women like myself. It is true you care the most about what affects you personally, or about things that are a part of your experiences. Nothing has ever gotten me as worked up as these issues do, and I get worked up over social issues a lot! A clear example is Vote for the Girls USA.

Will there be a downside? Absolutely, should this get out in the press. It is very possible some uppity clerks and waitresses will deem me not good enough for them. But the truth is I have never been very concerned about reaching this type of person – they most likely will have other options, and if they don’t they will quickly find a way to get over my “indiscretion”. No, instead I more interested in with an unmet need for action. So, I myself do not see see a worthy downside (besides jail time or paying a fine to Indiana Governor Mike Pence, and if I play my cards right, I think I will most likely do the sex act in a hotel in Nevada where prostitution is legal except in Las Vegas, Reno, Carson City).

Melissa Ede. She was the first such transwoman to have auctioned off her virginity, but later canceled the auction.

Melissa Ede. She was the first such transwoman to have auctioned off her virginity, but later canceled the auction.

Afterthought (an important one): The same applies for the widespread stigma that surrounds all sex work among transgendered women like myself. We are such an insincere culture on this topic. We claim to care and know what’s best for sex workers (setting aside the fact that this is condescending to begin with), and then we take such pleasure in calling them whores, gossiping about them, shunning them, and denying them their humanity.

Also, FYI, hopefully I will be back with another update next week since I am busy with my site Vote for the Girls. Oh, and by the way, another transgender woman in the UK named Melissa attempted the same virginity auction, but did not go through with this. So I think I have a damn good shot at becoming the very first transgender woman ever to have sold her virginity (and did so for the final time as a biological male.)

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28Apr/14

Holly’s reaction to Ava Zinn’s Decision to Auction her virgininty as a male

Holly Everman contributed to this post and she wanted to share it on AvaZinn.com

Ava Zinn

As many of my friends from Muncie Central and Ava’s long-time friends know now about Ava Zinn’s decision to auction off her virginity as a male. Within a week, the decision literally blew up Vote for the Girls after my DUI arrest and getting shoved to the floor by a black woman named Khayla (Kayla with h silent.) It was a few weeks that Ava had threatened to do a porn site called “FILF AVA” (aka Ava Zinn is a Father I’d Love to Fuck) and auction off her virginity, the latter of which Ava said would happen if all available female contestants on American Idol were eliminated or in danger of being eliminated.

After hearing Jessica landed in the bottom two for the first time and when Ava addressed Kellie (Rock), Kathi (Jameson), and myself, I knew I saw something in Ava I hadn’t seen in 15 years — a sign of desperation and what I think Rush Limbaugh’s FemiNazi quote and Glenn Beck call Vote for the Girls “New Afghanistan”

From reading Ava’s tweets below, I already knew what the shocking announcement was…

Then Ava’s Announcement that she was selling her virginity as a Vote for the Girls Punishment.

After the announcement, I had a feeling that I wasn’t surprised that as I have known Ava Zinn longer than anyone. As a woman now 34 years old from the 10th largest city in Indiana (Muncie), watching that announcement made me realize there’s a major male demon in Ava that she wants to get rid of before her gender transition is final. What I think a few of Ava’s friends didn’t realize is that only one of Ava’s male friends has truly seen her nude as a male, yet that was some 15, 16, 17 years ago–Ava’s gonna correct me if I’m mistaken.

I commented on the Facebook profile of Allison Abercrombie, a friend of mine from Muncie while I was on my way to Marion from Castleton, and I after hearing from Ava that she had to deactivate her Facebook as a sign of walking away. For me, it felt unreal and surreal.

There’s pretty much nothing anyone (Ava’s friends, my friends, etc) can do at this point besides accepting this #VotefortheGirls#PunishmentForFailure

Ava posted this on her Facebook (and before she deactivated her account) right before she made the announcement Friday

Thank y’all so much for your kind words and support over the five years on Facebook and 20 plus years I’ve been friends with a majority–especially Holly Everman Willis, Alec Dailey, Karly Cope, Elaine Ellis, Ramona Reed Tyler, Ashley Dawson, Wendy Becker Simpkins, Telissa Hunt, Justin Planck, Veronica Schmerber, and Kayla Battishill,

 

Though many long-time friends will be critical of what I will announce on YouTube Friday, I know the true meaning of friendship lies in the heart and being loyal. Since 1994, a dark secret desire of mine was hidden of what eventually lead to this ongoing gender transition (and since the transition began 10 years ago this December, I’ve been more successful as a woman) and a clear evidence is Vote for the Girls USA which has had success last year. Before I came out as #MtF in 2003 Megan Stone and Blake Pattison were the last individuals ever to see me as a male (as far as living as a male) and today had I not came out back then I would have taken my own life.

I am so much more than what you hear or see on Vote for the Girls and online (of which I often curse, occasionally bullying, telling those who to vote for) – it’s about being passionate, it’s about fulfilling a goal, it’s about fulfilling an obligation.

Everyone that I have met over the years have proven that to me since my kindergarten year over a quarter-century ago. Thank you for the support over the years allowing me to be far more successful as a woman

Whatever the consequences and repercussions of what I announce on YouTube Friday, I will always become a woman of my word and remain hopeful the best is still yet to come. Thank you all so much for your understanding!

 

I am not at all surprised unlike many of Ava’s friends that I’ve met over the years I’ve been friends with Ava and I’ve met a few since I went to Muncie Central and Ava went to Mississinewa. I do remember the first time Ava ever visited me in Muncie back in 1999, Ava was wearing a grey sweater and black leggings (which kinda indicated to me at the time I really had no idea)  when her mother, Margaret, was at Ball Memorial Hospital. I was a sophomore at Ball State while Ava was a junior at Missisisnewa High School. I was 19 that had just broke up with my first boyfriend after 8 years and Ava was a 16 year old boy dating my 20 year old sister, Elisa, and they were expecting what eventually became my pet niece 15 years later (Tiffani).  At that point for me, I started to realize Ava and Elisa were basically on the rocks. My late brother, Garfield, both my sisters, Elisa and Lynsey, another close friend of mine and Ava’s (Robyn–the oldest of the group) and I went to what was Carlos O’Kelly’s restaurant one night in October 1999–I had asked them to keep a secret until I told my parents myself. I really no idea at that time, from what Ava told me that night of what her words “Muncie Mob” meant. It wasn’t until when I learned about the death of Margaret and really shocked that Ava was “passed over” (until Ava’s brother killed himself three months to the day of Margaret’s death) because Margaret believed in 1999, that Ava would “fuck things up” and I knew every time Ava was telling the truth when Margaret accused Ava of something she didn’t do. What I did not realize back then was that I saw signs Ava really failed as a male over the next several years and at the conclusion of my sophomore year at Ball State in 2000, I came out as a bisexual to my parents, and they would eventually understand some years later after I met my future wife Veroncia a year before Ava came out as a transgender female.

What I think Ava Zinn will gain from this (other than being called a prostitute, spending time in jail, or paying a fine–the latter of the two is what she’s always trying to avoid) will pretty much have her reputation get hit, if her reputation hasn’t already been declined since her fateful prom night back in 2001.

What I think many, if not all of Ava’s friends have to remember (and I said this on Facebook), her decision to auction her virginity may be 20 years in the making. It’s not like Ava’s going into the sex industry, but for her it is something she’s doing as a last resort after years of what she says has to failure and pretty much is seeking revenge for let’s say elimination of Pia Toscano, Angie Miller, Malaya Watson on American Idol.

 

After learning Jess was in the bottom 2 again..

Now what? Kellie Rock, one of my colleagues on Vote for the Girls USA commented: If I were Ava’s position, I think Ava should have made a Hell of a better decision that doing this virginity auction over American Idol.

I mean, I’ve never seen Ava drop that low ever. I mean Ava even told me she’s been through two sexual assaults both as a male (in July 2002) and as a female (in June 2010). You probably didn’t know both her assailants were both BLACK MEN.

Holly, that was the reason Khayla (Chow), a Black woman shoved you, a white woman got into that clash a few weeks ago.

I spoke to Ava in person tonight, she has been kinda busy with Vote for the Girls (behind the scenes), yet don’t be surprised if you see Ava on the Vote for the Girls episodes on the YouTube channel in pretty much her dark side (worst case scenario, it’ll be Ava wearing a bra in her 36 AA breasts). She’s pretty much turned VFTG into “The Morton Downey Jr Show” if you remember that particular program back in the day.”

For the most part, Kellie does raise a good point. Ava has been sexually assaulted twice in her life and both her assailants pretty much fondled Ava inappropriately, and worst case scenario, I think there is a theory why Ava never has been in a relationship with males and the reason people call Ava Zinn a Man-Hater.

What the important thing that I think all of Ava’s friends have to understand is that she didn’t commit suicide, but has came close on seven occasions. She has been through years of bad luck and last year she pretty much bounced back in 2013, of which turned out to be her perfect year. The last time that happened was 1995.

If being friends with Ava for 24 years now do indicate one thing, when Ava has a perfect year like in 1995 and 2013, the following year tuns real bad. I guess we’ll just have to wait and see how this virginity auction of Ava Zinn’s all this pays out. Not to be a gossip queen, ladies and gentleMAN, I think it will be 2016 once Ava truly bounces back and lucky if she avoids jail time or pay a fine once this is all over. But if she does end up in jail, which I think if Ava plays her cards right, and doesn’t go to jail since it would be the first time in Ava’s life she’d be in jail.

As I close I did notice the date of the virginity auction announcement was April 18, 2014–it’s exactly 18 years to the day that many of Ava’s friends (that have since unfriended Ava on Facebook) said back in 1996 she should have been expelled for breaking a classroom window that happened on April 18, 1996. Yet, a majority stuck with Ava though that and I think that Ava may gain new friends in a few years if and when she does relocate to Indianapolis with some of Ava’s long-time friends deciding to end the friendship altogether. I do expect at Ava have least 20 unfriends when she does reactivate on Facebook. I wouldn’t be surprised to see Ava make some close friend changes, yet Ava did say that she’s a woman of her word and invite Alec (Dailey) and Justin (Planck)–they’re the only remaining males that are Ava’s 12 closest friends while the remainder of the close friends (including myself) are all female, and Ava has invited Telissa (Hunt) and Veronica (Schmerber) to Ava’s wedding (if and when that happens.) Now with the announcement of Ava auctioning her virginity as a male, this is going to be interesting on how all this plays out since Ava’s virginity auction, according to the virginity auction site, also includes what Ava defines as the start of a Long Term Relationship and leading to marriage between a transgender woman and a biological woman–to put it more bluntly that would potentially be Indiana’s very first unofficial same sex marriage.

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