Category Archives: AZH Holdings

21Nov/17

Crossover with Vote for the Girls USA: Addison Agen Coverage

Source: How to vote for Addison Agen during ‘The Voice’ Live Rounds – Fort Waynes NBC 

FORT WAYNE, Ind. (edited from WPTA-DT2 and voteforthegirls.us) — The local VFTG Pick and Fort Wayne’s Very own Addison Agen will compete in NBC’s “The Voice” Live Rounds on Monday. She was picked by Vote for the Girls Founder, Webmaster, and Host Ava Zinn as is Chloe Kohanski and Keisha Renee.

VFTG USA is providing wall-to-wall coverage by posting the results live as they happen in the east coast. In addition, we are also simulcasting with AvaZinn.com and INNewsCenter as a crossover event.

There are six ways to vote for Addison or any other VFTG Pick and/or male flex picks chosen by our moderator panelists.

App Voting
Online Voting
Xfinity X1 Voting for Comcast Cable subscribers only
iTunes Voting (should an artist hit the overall top 10 of the iTunes Charts, those votes are multiplied five times during the appropriate voting period.
Apple Music Voting
Twitter Voting
You can use the following hashtag to vote for Addison on Twitter:

#VoiceSaveAddison
You’re allowed to vote up to 10 times, so make them count!

The voting window will be open the day the performance airs Monday at 8 p.m. to 12 p.m. on Tuesday.

CLICK HERE TO VOTE.

For the voting rules, click here.

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25Oct/17

Ava Zinn Exploring Part-Time Employment at Cafe Valley, Possible Retail Deal

MARION, Ind. (October 25, 2017)– Ava Zinn/Aeverine Zinn Holdings announced Wednesday that yours truly, Ava Zinn, is exploring the potential employment at Cafe Valley’s Marion, Indiana location as well as a comprehensive, long-term retail agreement that will potentially gives Aeverine Zinn Holdings to sell Cafe Valley’s products at the proposed vape shop and vegetarian buffet also to be located in Marion, Indiana.

The founder, webmaster, and owner (yours truly)  of Aeverine Zinn Holdings said, “The decision to explore my potential employment at Cafe Valley and the rights to sell their products at the potential vape shop/vegetarian buffet is a result of the ongoing analysis of Aeverine Zinn Holdings’ portfolio. Any employment, retail rights to carry the product, or sales would enable yours truly and Aeverine Zinn Holdings to use the proceeds to reduce debt, strengthen the balance sheets of mine and Aeverine Zinn Holdings and help position both yours truly to pursue future growth opportunities.

“This potential comprehensive agreement will enable the strong partnership with Cafe Valley and will allows the vape shop/vegetarian buffet hybrid to provide an array of outstanding bakery products, in addition to the vaping products and accessories and fresh food for the vegetarian buffet to be owned and operated by Aeverine Zinn Holdings,” said Ms. Zinn. “Through the potential Cafe Valley agreement, I look forward to significantly enhancing our product offerings and commitment to the communities of Marion and Fort Wayne, Indiana.

“I  believe I  will be viewed as a welcome additions to the Cafe Valley Team as well as an addition to the Aeverine ZInn Holdings’ proposed Vape Shop and Vegetarian Buffet,” Zinn added.

Ava Zinn/Aeverine ZInn Holdings said that there can be no assurance that any transaction and/or employment will take place. Additional information will be provided when and if the company enters into a transaction.

With the potential employment with Cafe Valley, Ava Zinn will become one of the few  transgender women (if not the first M2F) to be employed at Cafe Valley’s Marion, Indiana location and Aeverine ZInn Holdings becoming the newest seller of Cafe Valley products sold at the proposed Vape Shop and Vegetarian Buffet in Marion, Indiana.

About Ava Zinn

Chicagoan by birth (as a boy), Ava Zinn was brought up in Van Buren, Indiana. With an psychological/mental injury prematurely putting an end to any hopes of a promising career in special education, she went back to business to complete a course in housing and media production management. Her dedication and natural talent led her to train with some of the Indianapolis and Fort Wayne’s leading personalities.

In 1993, at the age of 10, Zinn set up her first wholly owned loyalty program with her namesake Santa Ava Zinn (then Santa Franky Zinn), which quickly received the most prestigious accolade in the gift retail industry. In 2005 Ava became executive of NoSirGifts in Marion, IN. Within three years, was awarded four stars status. In 1999, at the age of 16, Zinn set up her first wholly owned namesake, Aeverine Zinn Holdings, which quickly received the most prestigious accolade in the media production world – five stars.

Ava has also become a star of the internet both in the Hoosier state and in the U.S., as well as in the U.K, with the top-rated YouTube channels: Both the American and British versions of VOTE FOR THE GIRLS and AvaZinn.com. .

About Café Valley

Café Valley Bakery produces high quality bakery products for In-Store Bakeries, Club Stores, Food Service and Convenience Stores throughout the world.

Café Valley manufacture the most delectable Croissants, Muffins, Bundt Cakes, Ring Cakes, Loaf Cakes, Danish and Turnovers, plus our signature Café Bites.

All of Café Valley’s products are fully finished and shipped directly to customer’s warehouses resulting in the finest ready-to-eat products available in a grocery store, club store or favorite restaurant today.

Café Valley’s customer list is a Who’s Who in the grocery retailing industry with delicious baked goods are designed to complement every bakery’s existing core items and add new excitement, profitability and growth to a bakery category.

Each Café Valley item is developed as a complete, stand-alone product. The packaging and appearance of the product draws attention while the quality and taste brings consumers back again and again. The price is competitive and offers value consumers instantly recognize.

© 2017, avazinn.com. All rights reserved.

12Oct/17

Ava Zinn, Aeverine Zinn Holdings to split assets

Aeverine Frathleen Nieves (“Ava Zinn”) announced today that she is retaining an unnamed organization to split the assets into three legal entities: Ava Zinn herself, Aeverine Zinn Holdings (retail and media sole proprietorship owned and operated by Ava Zinn), and a soon to be named nonprofit social services organization funded by donations (also owned and operated by Ava Zinn, tentatively named The WMAA Foundation and subject to change).

On October 11, 2017, Ava Zinn confirmed that she is reviewing strategic alternatives that will result in any transaction. Ava emphasizes that she is unable to predict if this review will result in any transaction. Ava Zinn can confirm the nonprofit organization will offer the following services: Furniture Bank, Automobile Bank, Adult Adoption Agency, Representative Payee Services, homeless shelters for the LGBT communities in all of Indiana’s 92 counties.

Ava Zinn doesn’t expected make further public comments with respect to this announcement unless such review of strategic alternatives results in transactions.

 

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06Jun/17

Pride Month: Standing Up To A Dress Code after 25 Years

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FORT WAYNE and MARION, IN – Like any other woman, she often worries about her hair, her weight, her makeup, anything that impacting her femininity, or in my case even my bra size. Transgender women like myself are no different than any other woman but with several exceptions: bigger bone structure (most fixed by facial feminisation surgery), the dreaded beard shadow (effectively fixed with M2F hormones and electrolysis), and the fact this transgender woman has to keep her existing male reproductive organs for the time being. The reason for this woman is strictly for reproductive purposes as she still wants to have biological children and doing so as two women having sexual intercourse (obviously with my consent and the woman’s consent as well as being either in a long term relationship in addition of the woman’s benefit of automatically being a sex partner – a dating and relationship rule I’ve had since 1993) in order to conceive (only notable difference has to be the fact instead of a strap-on is the embarrassing imperfection as a woman has to be my enlarged clitoris and the second the erected enlarged clitoris is inserted into the woman’s vagina, conception occurs).

When I began my gender transition on December 1, 2004, I had a feeling that if I had rushed my transition, it will not only damage my family’s core beliefs (or even my core beliefs and values), lose a significant number of friends (there are some who I even went to high school with that I’m likely not going to be or even on good terms with) and I’ve responded by kicking them out of Facebook – I’ve banned and blocked as few as three and as many as 75 because they didn’t follow my rules such as addressing me as “Ava”, using male pronouns, or even not showing me the respect I’ve been entitled to or the other party unfriended me because I recently admitted to being a bully for 15 years after being bullied for over 25 years (there are times when bullying is a necessary tactic in order to get the truth uncovered and most of the time it is justified, effectively “bullying the bully” method). That is why a few years ago, I decided to implement the 2-5-10-BANNED FOR LIFE RULE to crack down on transphobia (it’s a very similar structure to Florida’s 10-20-LIFE Law) and to maintain perfection well as continuing many traditions and beliefs long before I began my gender transition.

Not to mention when I started transitioning my name (Frank to Ava), gender identity (male to female), and sexual orientation (straight male to gay female) may have changed as well as my appearance as a woman since I came out as not only as a transgender woman but subsequently as a woman identifying as a lesbian. There is always a feeling I get every time I step in front of a mirror or even looking at the damage male puberty did to me some 25+ years ago would do some damage eventually would effectively come back to haunt me.

Also not to mention, if viewers don’t like the way I am now living as a woman , my makeup, my weight or my outfit, they will make sure to let me know. And so far I’ve definitely have seen mostly negative comments that have caused me to stand up for what I believe in and defending my decision to transition from a man to a woman and responding the way I responded.

I found myself spending hours upon hours to make sure my overall appearance as a woman and image was perfect before I went out in public. Maintaining my appearance as a woman and hiding the dreadful male features I am cursed with may have been more exhausting than weightlifting or carrying a 50 pound bag of bird feeder. The experience shed light on how preoccupied I am with the details of my overall appearance, which made me realise after resuming counselling sessions after a 15 year a scene was the right decision after going through three rapes/sexual assaults.

LGBT Pride Month (June) 2017 is now in full swing. It’s hot. It is sticky. It’s a time of year when a woman or a transwoman’s appearance are a greater hassle than usual because of the humidity. Nonetheless, the battle to tame the dreaded male features (unfortunately) continues and no way of resolving them unless I pay extra money (something I don’t have) and the reason I auctioned off my virginity to Kymberly in July 2014 and still her $100,000 payment to deflower me wasn’t even enough. Kymberly finally admitted to me she had gambled it all away in Las Vegas in March 2017 and heard from one of my sources that Kymberly placed a $50,000 bounty on someone she held long standing grudge against, and that made me realise that I decided that I cannot marry Kymberly. What this means is the long-term relationship with Ava Zinn and Kymberly Alvaraz is ending in legal action.

Flashback to 1991 to 2001

I started questioning my gender identity and sexual orientation – unusual for someone eight years of age – while I was serving time at the since closed Silvercrest Children’s Developmental Center in New Albany until being released in December 1992. That was when I realised my childhood was already coming to an end and I knew I was already just too young to be a dad at 10 years of age. I remember I was about to use the restroom and saw something many see is quite frankly some will say made me retarded. I saw a girl (besides my mom) using the restroom and that made me realised I really was different, in addition to watching “The Little Mermaid” and I remember having some unusual crush but nowhere near as Mary Kay Letourneau. It was on the car ride from New Albany to Van Buren with my mom and brother, how fortunate I was and didn’t realise it at that time until I reconnected with someone on Facebook and did my best to stay in touch after leaving Silvercrest.
In middle school I had been picked on and bullied by that time it was for two years after being released from Silvercrest in New Albany. I wasn’t strong enough not because I have Autism. I had began to make an attempt to become a female thinking ‘I’d trade my male parts for female parts’ and have the same characteristics just like any other girl after I heard the term “sex change” in 1995.
Unfortunately, everyone I went to school with knows why I broke a classroom window on April 18, 1996, at least that was what they thought from their standpoint. Years later, and I recently admitted to bullying.

When I launched my web site in 1999 as a junior at Mississinewa High School, there seemed to be a standard of some sort. It was also when I launched the original INNewsCenter, and knew who I wanted to become after some needed TLC from the right resources and people I can know and trust, or so I had thought.

Several years after graduating from Mississinewa High School, there seemed to be a no standard or structure when I sat foot at Indiana Wesleyan University as a college freshman and literally had no structure as construction was going on that basically affected my performance academically. There were several theories why I simply was not emotionally ready for college and when I began the gender transition, I knew there was going to be a fourth and fifth requirement that Jennie Conrad did even mention on the infamous dis-enrollment letter I received on September 27, 2001. I knew there was (1) finding another college to attend to transfer credits to IWU, (2) have psychological and psychiatric clearance (but unfortunately not as a full-time student nor as a male), and (3) a signed release if I recall to even apply for readmission. It’s safe to say now it’s just only a matter of finding the right college, getting the right number of credits and the right tools and necessities needed to finally close the IWU Cold Case.

Being more successful emotionally as a woman and still a father.

I do know that after transitioning and after my eldest daughter, Samantha, graduated from high school and IWU, I knew as the father of Samantha Zinn, I knew I had done a lot better job with raising Samantha; a transgender daughter, Tiffani; a third daughter, Tabitha; and two adopted daughters, Ashli and Kylee. After Samantha graduated high school five years ago she decided to attend college in the fall of 2013 and she didn’t want to make the same mistakes I did. Sure enough, in the Spring of 2016, Samantha earned her Associates Degree in Communications and followed in my footsteps and my former father-in-law (aka Samantha’s maternal grandfather) beforehand. Though there were times when raising Samantha, Tiffani (then Timothy), Tabitha, and currently with my now only son Kenneth as well as Ashli and Kylee, I had to frequently found myself in a number of parenting and day care situations I knew it was the right parenting call as most of them were very bad situations that could have necessitated Child Protective Services. My mom, the late Laura Bakula, my aunt-in-law Sheena were a great babysitter to Samantha, Tiffani, Ashli, and Tabitha long before “Vote for the Girls” launched. I also knew I had done a far better job as a father and as a woman than my mom did when she raised myself and my late brother, most of the parenting and discipline skills my mom used with me and my skills with my children differs from my mom’s methods. One in particular was the “no TV punishment,” but often most of the “Vote for the Girls Punishment for Failure” when a female contestant doesn’t win were also used on my children in the form of the “punishment fitting the crime” or “a justified sanction”. In fact, recently I Googled ‘female fathers of children’ and it seems as though a woman fathering children are nearly as uncommon as same sex marriage.
There is a subtle or possible no-so-subtle message that the specific type of parenting of a child is the fact that the child always has a mother and father regardless and the terms “transgender mother” and “transgendered father” are useless. After I came out to my children and recently with Tabitha, I told them “I will always be your father you can still address me as ‘Dad’.” It was something I had in mind and realized that a gender transition is very similar to a television station changing its network affiliation.

With that in mind, in addition to already existing “Vote for the Girls” franchise and several other cultural references to Lauren Brill, Brandi Chastain, and two-woman anchor teams becoming the norm, as well as basically creating the “Producers Have A Choice, Viewers Don’t” philosophy ten years ago when what is now known as INNCD 47 Action News launched (two women co-anchor news, a female meteorologist, and a female sports director). After I first watched a South Bend late newscast with Cindy Ward and Deborah Daniels at the anchor desk 15 years ago, I knew and remembered and had that flashback that first time I ever had lesbian sex.

Flashback to Spring and Summer 2002

It was that particular moment when I had “lesbian sex” with my first wife Angie, she was being impregnated by me (for the last time living as a male before coming out as a transgender woman the following year) and Angie being pregnant with my daughter Tabitha. It was also around Father’s Day of 2002 and a month after my mom died from liver and kidney failure. At the time, I had recently healed from an injury I sustained after I had attempted to arrest my own brother for kidnapping my then-2 year old son Timothy (now daughter Tiffani). It was also around that time I had also just experienced the first time in my life I’d ever been raped. I knew I had failed as male and tried my best to mask the emotional pain and never even told anyone nor did I even realized it until my brother drowned at Pine Lake.

Today/June 2017

There seems to be a subtle or maybe not-so-subtle message that looking modest means everyone looking exactly the same. So recently as part of pride month as well as a “Vote for the Girls” Punishment for Failure–Normani Kordei finished third place on Dancing with the Stars and despite the Moderators’ Save being used to decline Lauren Duski’s second place finish–based from what I had seen during not only those two competitions but also took the deaths of Holly Everman, Perri Johnson, and other factors, I had to overturn the Moderators’ Save and decided that there was not going to be a winning moderator. The pink, purple, blue, and red teams all were declared losers and face the most demeaning and diabolical punishments in “Vote for the Girls” history.

The transmen on the red team (as well as Devin on the blue team) have to go out in public in nothing but a breast binders while the transwomen on the purple team (including myself, as well as Kendra, Hillary, and Maci on the pink team as well as Bria Savage on the blue team and Lydia Delagatto on the red team) go out in public in only a bra and pants/skirt for not just Pride Month (June) 2017, but also July and August as well as the America’s Got Talent 12 and So You Think You Can Dance 14 competitions and just let biology do its work.

To my surprise, amazement, and most importantly self-acceptance as well as self-worth (I only did it on three occasions on the Vote for the Girls set), I actually kind of like being outside in just a bra and pants or skirt. The outfit match my gender identity as a woman, sexual orientation as a lesbian and overall appearance as a woman, yet could use some feminization. I waited until it was the right time to do so and many of you are probably thinking ‘THIS IS WAR!’ It may be necessarily something I want to do for the month of June but additionally when I’m in the mood or feeling intimate or looking at a biological female I’m interested in.

Despite my decision to go out in what some of you say is inappropriate and in bad taste, I was still nervous about it. The first time I was in a bra but with no shirt was on May 12, 2011 when Ryan Seacrest announced that Lauren Alaina and Haley Reinhardt were in the American Idol 10 Top 3 and the term “pull a Brandi Chastain” became well known. That’s because I think transwomen and women in our society and most certainly women and transwomen are scrutinized for too long. Every bit of the appearance of a woman and/or transwoman is picked apart.

While I was a bit self conscious, I had grabbed a shirt just in case should the “No Shirt. No Shoes. No Service” card come into play as this was constantly on my mind the whole time and trying to calm down chafing as I have yet to begin hormone therapy, I did my job as a transgender woman. In the process I realized the photos I posted on Social media should and—I hope do or will inspire more transwomen or even transmen binding his chest—speak louder to my professionalism as a webmaster than the way I look.

I’m just a woman: Officially a Transgender Woman since December 1, 2004. That’s not going to change.

I’m just a lesbian like any other woman who identifies as such: I was attracted to women as a male, and still find women attractive. But if the woman’s currently straight and is in a relationship with me and one benefit of the relationship is obviously having her as my sex partner (a rule I’ve had since 1993)… She will have to come out as a bisexual sooner or later. No ifs and or buts about it.

My gender identity and sexual orientation as a woman reflects the values and the family history I’ve always had long before the gender switch from man to woman and my work reflects my ability. The name, gender identity, and sexual orientation may change when transitioning from one sex to another, but everything else does not change, such as who you were before the transition, your personality, your lifestyle, your friends and family, etc.

Not even the DNA or chromosomes change with the gender transition: males and transfemales always have and always will have the dreaded Y chromosome and WILL ALWAYS BE A FATHER while females and transmales will ALWAYS BE A MOTHER.

Finally I can say I’m proud of my accomplishments as a woman despite the imperfections that were given to me such as the Y chromosome, the beard shadow (mostly unseen in photos if they aren’t covered or retouched), the flat chest (or my size 38AA cup) , the enlarged clitoris (this is what goes into the woman’s vagina to make children – the dreaded P-E-N-I-S), the big lumps between my legs (the male reproductive organs that produce sperm that go into the woman’s vagina). I can also say that once I am finally done having children and the timing is right then I can start the orchidectomy and begin estrogen and progesterone therapy for the remainder of my life, and help me get across the message that, like so many other transgendered men and women, not afraid to be different. Rather, I’m excited to embrace the truth of what a gender transition should look like in my view with all of the benefits and options available while they’re still intact before any genital reassignment surgery.

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27Apr/17

Ava Zinn Apologizes For VFTGUSA Airing Shocking DWTS Elimination Live: ‘We Really Messed Up’

MARION and FORT WAYNE, IN (AZH) – A shaken up yours truly, apologized to Vote for the Girls viewers after one of my producers now facing disciplinary action failed to cut away from live video of perhaps one of the most shocking eliminations that likely will knock Pia Toscano’s elimination down to number two and perhaps one of the most shocking in Dancing with the Stars history. This time, the elimination was fatal as a moderator died on my watch — worst of all it was my BFF’s domestic partner, Perri.

Throughout the DWTS 24 Week 6 Result, my Vote for the Girls staff cut to and from the live DWTS 24 program. I had mentioned the phrase “On ‘Dancing with the Stars’ there are no Vote for the Worst picks. All moderators’ picks are good.” I narrated the results, until suddenly, viewers saw Nancy Kerrigan and Heather Morris in the bottom two as Normani (Kordei) and Simone (Biles) were already saved by votes from the American public. We were projecting that Nancy to be eliminated on April 24, and the second Tom Burgeron announced “after a perfect score,” the screen cut to black and I yelled at the control room, “Get off it. Get off it. Get off it!” followed by “GO TO COMMERCIAL!” but it was already too late.

When the program returned from commercial, yours truly, clearly distressed, explained what had happened:

While we had found out that Heather and Maks were eliminated and showing it to you live, we went on delay.

So, that’s why I didn’t talk for about 10 seconds. We created a five second delay as if you were to rewind your VCR or DVR five seconds, that’s what we did with the elimination we were showing you on DWTS 24. What you do not see on VFTG is that each and every moderator and villain have a monitor to see what is happening five seconds before you see it, so in the event should anything go horribly wrong, we would be able to cut away from it without subjecting you, the viewer, to that particular… (my fellow Purple team moderator Lanise White finished my sentence and said objectionable content) objectionable content that unfit for YouTube (or TV)

It doesn’t happen very often and we can honestly say we messed up. And we’re all very sorry. That elimination didn’t belong on YouTube. We took every precaution we knew how to take to keep you from seeing that particular elimination. And I sincerely apologize to you for allowing that to happen.

Sometimes we see a lot of eliminations that we don’t let get to you, because Vote for the Girls is mostly about female contestants and since Vote for the Girls is mostly a TV-14 program, it’s insensitive. And that particular elimination was wrong. And you have my personal confidence that won’t happen again on my watch. And I’m deeply, deeply sorry.

This story is being updated on both AvaZinn.com and on Vote for the Girls USA and unfortunaltely a fatality did in fact occour as

 

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24Apr/17

Ava Zinn launches “Vape Back! with Ava Zinn”

Yours truly (Ava Zinn) today announced the launch of an Indiana based YouTube channel dedicated to the vaping community that extends the portfolio of Aeverine Zinn Holdings (AZH) Internet Ventures.

It’s the debut week of Vape Back! with Ava Zinn. Ava Zinn is excited about the launch of the fifth internet venture from AZH joining AvaZinn.com, INNewsCenter, Vote for the Girls and Housing Hell.

Here’s the great news about Vape Back! – anyone residing in all of Indiana’s 92 counties can make suggestions of any vaping product for Ava to try (some restrictions do apply and must be approved by Ava herself) for a review.

“I’m pleased to confirm that I have made the decision to launch ‘Vape Back! with Ava Zinn,’ which is accretive to Aeverine Zinn Holdings and good for the State of Indiana as well as the LGBT community with whom I remain a strong partner as a transgendered woman,” said Zinn. “This transaction underscores our sharp focus on consistently improving the value of my Internet portfolio and on driving profitability for AZH.”

Today’s announcement takes place against the backdrop of a prior announcement of the subsidized housing smoking ban which Ava Zinn must comply by July 2018. Given this fact, Ava Zinn either had to smoke outside or get evicted. That particular decision would have meant a setback from which Ava Zinn will never recover from as she would be face homelessness since many communities in Indiana also have added e-cigarettes and vaping to existing smoking bans.

Today’s announcement does not impact AZH’s Vote for the Girls and INNewsCenter, yet does impact AvaZinn.com and Housing Hell.

We’re taking the conversation to YouTube across Marion, Muncie, and Kokomo during the summer of 2017. If you want to join the conversation and make a suggestion, email Ava Zinn at webmaster @ avazinn.com or go to the contact page.

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09Mar/17

Another Close Call… (3/8/17)

The last time I attempted to take my own life, Joe Keenan was filling out the remainder of Frank O’Bannon’s second term as Governor of Indiana, George W. Bush was President, and yours truly, Ava Zinn had lived her final days living as a biological male.

Fourteen years later, unlike last time, I did not need psychiatric treatment but I took some corrective action after realizing there was something I just could not live without — a bed I’ve had since 1994 called a Sealy Craftsmatic. I’ve had that particular bed specifically built for my mother and inherited the bed on May 11, 2002.

Wednesday, someone from one organization had the audacity and the nerve to come in my home and basically didn’t like the bed’s condition and I made it clear it was fine the way it is. I was not going let someone force me to take that bed to the dumpster for any reason even though I have NEVER had bedbugs.

That really sat off a traumatic experience and I was not going to let that happen. I knew whatever solution that someone offer will not work, and therefore an unacceptable resolution, yet praised at the improvements I’ve made. That should have been enough if someone just did not stick their nose where it didn’t belong.

Wednesday night, I had to make a choice because I spent most of the day with a back injury the individual caused when I was forced to take a perfectly good bed to the dumpster because I NEVER GONE WITHOUT AND NEVER WILL GO WITHOUT A BED FOR ANY F**KING REASON. It was either suicide or put my bed back together — it was obviously my bed that give me nearly 25 years of service and I don’t believe even for one minute a Craftmatic bed should ever be thrown out until the day of one’s death.

I am considering suing the organization for my back injury they caused and since the bed wasn’t in my home I couldn’t rest at all until I recovered the bed from the dumpster.

I’ve posted this in the Facebook Transgender Alliance group….

TW (M2F)? Came close to suicide on March 8, 2017….
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but this transwoman went with her own gut instinct instead to retrieve something I just could not live without – a bed. A Sealy Craftsmatic I’ve had since 1994 and no plans of changing the mattress for any reason (the closest thing I’ve come up with has to be a DIY mattress).

Yesterday, someone came to my home and told me that I needed to replace my bed. Then I suffered a third back injury for the third time in 17 years, spending most of the day injured and traumatized (had been diagnosed with PTSD after going through three rapes).

Yet last night, I had to make a choice…

My death and the local newspaper’s headline as well as Indiana would have said “Vote for the Girls Founder and Webmaster Ava Zinn dead at 34”

… or…

Recover my bed and bring it back where it belongs. I obviously chose my bed, even though that same person made me throw out the bed (and I’VE NEVER HAD BEDBUGS and NEVER HAD ANY PROBLEMS) and I wasn’t going to let that happen and I was make sure I had one at all times 24/7 and then the second I went outside that little instinct of mine said “Get your bed out of the dumpster and restore it.”

I’m still alive obviously and the last time I’d encountered something like that was April 18, 1996. My friends know the story and I remember it like it was yesterday.

 

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23Jan/17

Announcement from Ava Zinn: January 23, 2017

On January 19, 2017, while during a dentist appointment at Lifetime Smiles in Marion, Indiana, I had seen the upper roof of my mouth had a lesion. Upon checking out, I had learned my insurance didn’t cover the injury and I knew something was wrong, obviously at the hands of my own girlfriend.

My girlfriend of two years 49-year-old Kymberly Alvaraz, had overcooked a fateful Christmas dinner that caused great oral injury consistent to injuries confirmed by Doctor Schindler at Lifetime Smiles. After reviewing what my options were about a way to pay a $650 dental bill, I was really upset. But nothing compared to what I would endure moments after leaving the dentist on the afternoon of January 19.

Two days earlier while I was at my family physician at the South Side Medical Park in Marion, I was unofficially diagnosed with a stomach ulcer caused from an unrelated incident that turned out to be one of my closest calls in 30 years, if not the closest call in my life. I had that instinct I knew something wasn’t right and the fact it was the close call was ON MY BIRTHDAY two weeks earlier after enduring an illness that was stemmed from a December 29, 2016 incident near downtown Marion. I had vomited for two days straight right after The Voice 11 finale.

After returning home from the dentist, things escalated to the point where I’ll never forget the actions of my 22-month-old son, Kenneth, and what my 13-year-old daughter, Tabitha, did. Kymberly pushed me on to the living room couch as hard as she could and the stomach ulcer was acting up. She tried to chock me as hard as she could, but fatherly instinct kicked in. I knew what my next move was since I tried to scream yet muffled. Kenneth came in and that was when I knew what my next move was–gouging one of Kymberly’s eyes and then got up and made a citizen’s arrest. Tabitha pulled Kymberly’s hair as a method of restraint as Kymberly was arrested and I asked Kymberly to leave my home. Another daughter of mine, Ashli, transported to local police where she finally charged with second degree strangulation, domestic battery, and assault.

I then realized I’d been in familiar territory I’ve only been in before with my first girlfriend and the mother of my eldest daughter some 20 years ago and the second time was October 2013 with the same woman–my first girlfriend (Amanda Davidson). I knew it was domestic violence. I knew it then when Amanda pushed me hard when I was living with my mom in Van Buren in 1994 and I knew it when Kymberly laid her hands on me on January 19.

Aside from enduring domestic violence both as a guy (I was an 11 year old boy) in 1994 and as a transgender woman now 34 years of age. I saw the same signs, Kenneth saw on January 19. What I saw in my son, Kenneth, that day and my now-oldest daughter, Samantha, in 1994 was me nearly 35 years earlier when my parents got into a domestic spat (I remember sleeping through the ordeal).

The differences from the 1994 incident with Amanda and the 2017 incident with Kymberly was, Kymberly was three months pregnant with my twin girls (to be named Alisan Wé and Saara Jessica) at the age of 49, which is a rarity, while in the 1994 incident, Amanda wasn’t. For all I know, I must have missed the warning signs about postpartum depression that I should’ve known about. I had suspected Kymberly had postpartum depression, yet wasn’t sure about the facts until I watched an episode of “Deadly Women” on YouTube recently. In particular, after watching one particular episode or two of “Deadly Women” had Paula Sims and Kelly Silk if I recall had in my opinion had even worse postpartum depression that didn’t end well.

Another difference was the fact, is It is the same Kymberly that was declared the highest bidder when I auctioned off my virginity in 2014. Amanda, on the other hand, did not pay for the long term relationship rights. Kymberly was the first to pay for the Relationship Agreement.

Will this mean my relationship with Kymberly end in a breakup or even legal action? Since my virginity auction is considered prostitution in Indiana, I’m basically been a “gay hoe” (or an awful slang term describing a slutty transwoman being a prostitute) for the money. If Kymberly wants to mend the long-term relationship after this incident, she will need to be on some psychiatric medication that will definitely help her and with the fact Kymberly approaching menopause, I think there is a slight chance the relationship can be saved. Kymberly will also need some psychological help professionally to help her postpartum depression and with being diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder myself (a matter of what will work for yours truly).

There is a reason why I still have a Dating and Relationships policy since January 4, 1993. The six Relationship Agreements I made with Amanda, Elisa (Everman), Angie (Willis), Christy (Johnson), and Kymberly are basically treated as marriages in some way. In all of those relationships, the aforementioned five women are automatically sex partners of yours truly — no ifs and/or buts about that. It may be one of the strictest relationship policies as it’s considered to be a legally binding agreement and a date when the contract ends. On two occasions, the relationship ended after I caught her cheating since I’ve never did do any infidelities and loyal. On another occasion, the second relationship with Amanda ended after she effectively caused major property damage.

Another issue or two to consider whether or not to even thinking about ending the long term relationship with Kymberly has to be the question whether to impeach Kymberly under Jessica’s Policy (enacted on January 4, 2010 in honor of the late Jessica Berg and initially a tougher dating and relationship policy) á la a Presidential Impeachment. The second issue, also since Jessica’s Policy went into effect, which is how will Kymberly react to getting that “Dreaded Dear Jane Letter” I will send if and when should I have to end the long term relationship with Kymberly.

With that in mind, I am giving Kymberly ONE LAST CHANCE since Kymberly and I have invested more than I’ve invested in Angie and Amanda combined. If Kymberly doesn’t fulfill these expectations in what’s effectively a reconciliation, I may have to end the relationship with Kymberly on January 3, 2018 (the same day the current agreement expires). So we’ll have to wait and see.

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27Oct/16

Remembering Heidi Mason

There’s no doubt that friends, family and fellow Ole Miss Class of 2000 alumni are remembering Heidi Mason.

From professors at Mississinewa High School to classmates and friends like myself to the moderator panel and villains on “Vote for the Girls”, the State of Indiana paused to remember the 35 year old I had a privilege of meeting for the first time back in the fall of 1995.

Heidi Mason died Friday at 35 years of age, after spending 22 years fighting Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome (EDS), a very rare inherited connective tissue disorder. Her name trended AvaZinn.com and on Vote for the Girls with hastags such as #RIPHeidiMason on Facebook.

“I’m so sadden by the passing of Heidi…I have known her since grade school. And Even though our friendship was not the same since last year.. All the years before we made so many memories..I will miss her dearly.. I am so upset that we will never have the chance to get our friendship back to the way it used to be.. But I am glad that we had talked a few times in the last two months on Facebook. And I will always be thankful for all the time we did get to spend together.. And my heart goes out to her family. Especially to her mother and her two boys… And I pray they are able to find comfort and peace in this sad time,” wrote alumnus Rhamey Furnish.

Friends and former classmates that went to school with Heidi remembered her beyond the sacrifices she made — “People who didn’t like her had to respect her,” my close friend Holly Everman said.

In the Mississinewa Community Schools Special Education Alumni, she was a hero and a sweet girl, wrote one person on Facebook.

And on “Vote for the Girls USA” a 35 second tribute aired after the eliminations of supermodel Amber Rose and “The Brady Bunch” actress Maureen McCormick on “Dancing with the Stars”  (video below)

 

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04Sep/16

Ava Zinn addresses the responses regarding minor accident, recent decisions

I am well aware of it. I am very well aware of criticism I am facing after making the decision to go live on Facebook with a breaking story after witnessing a minor accident on the afternoon of Friday, September 2, 2016 at the intersection of North Wabash Avenue and West Kem Road on the northwest side of Marion (Indiana).

As someone who is an executive producer of “Vote for the Girls (USA on YouTube)” and with some broadcast journalism experience background while attending Mississinewa High School and previously launched a news department back in 1999, you would know what I am talking about. I’m sure that all broadcast journalists have to know whether or not to shoot a Facebook live segment (something I do not do very often, unless it is warranted).

The decision to go on Facebook live just a half hour after witnessing the minor accident, met my threshold and met my threshold of the decision to go on Facebook Live, despite being shaken up. However, keep in mind that I had to find a spot with a stable Wi-Fi connection in order to provide the live update as it happened and had to work with what I have available.

My decision to post the live video on Facebook simply came down to the obligation and a duty to inform fans (both on THIS WEB SITE and Vote for the Girls) and friends without any f**king question in my judgement whatsoever. The decision also came down to the decision of this one news story since I also run the “Vote for the Girls” franchise.

One clear example of when to make the decision to go live on Facebook and/or post on YouTube at the first opportunity (besides posting episodes) happened during the summer break, starting with the very second I got alerted (approximately 4:00 AM Eastern) from sources in Orlando, Florida of word via Twitter about the murder (or should I say the Assassination) of Christina Grimmie on June 11, 2016. The reason that story met my threshold of my definition of an assassination is because Christina Grimmie was my Vote for the Girls pick on the sixth season of The Voice and decided to pick eventual winner Joshua Kaufman (I cannot accept Mr. Kaufman as a fellow Hoosier because he is from Virgina and the reason why WTHR “13 NBC” anchorman Scott Swan is no longer my all-time Indianapolis anchorman–that position is now held by Ray Cortopassi at Fox 59 in Indianapolis) as a “Vote for the Worst pick.”  Two years later (THIS YEAR), NOW I know that I had made the right decision for a good reason or two (Watch “Remembering Christina Grimmie” from VFTG  and “INNewsCenter’s 300th YouTube clip” below the details) ;

  • After Alisan Porter won “The Voice” and watching BOTH clips from Alisan Porter and Joshua Kaufman from “Star Search” back in the day on YouTube as well as after I OFFICIALLY sold my virginity to my girlfriend, Kymberly, as a threat if a female contestant did not win shows like “The Voice” or “American Idol”, which in fact did happen and what eventually lead to the most brutal punishment at the time.
  • Ever since the late Christina Grimmie’s third place finish two years ago, I’ve since made changes to Vote for the Girls to include “flex picking” (or switching picks) last year that produced my first American Idol moderator victory after Nick Fradiani was announced the winner (though I did not watch the finale performances, but Kymberly did because Jax Cole, the last female contestant, finished third, and I never watch an all-male finale nor from 1986 until I posted as part of a late “April Fool’s Day” prank after 23 years on the INNewsCenter YouTube channel, decided to post Scott Jones and Gene Cox anchoring the April 3, 2009 edition of Fox 59’s morning newscast–there are certain days when the day is right or when I do get advance notice then and ONLY THEN will that ever happen)….

Often times, most of the moderator panelists on VFTG also do double duty as a de facto reporter as a broadcast journalist. The first time that ever happened was on June 11, 2016 when I had to broadcast a special episode of “Vote for the Girls” that was eventually posted on the YouTube channel the night of June 11, 2016 (watch below) and also on INNewsCenter (watch below).

I have faced way too much criticism in recent years over recent decisions and a great majority of those decisions proved to be justified (similar to when a police officer has to shoot a suspect), but the fact of the matter is many of those other decisions were made because of what I have available at that time. Take the WISH-TV/Bright House dispute eight years ago, look at the repercussions that followed and the reason why I have cut the cord some years before it became a trend not because of costs, but after the big four Fort Wayne stations were dropped from Bright House is what killed INNewsCenter and outdated equipment . Another clear example was raising just enough funds for my American Idol audition five years ago, when I had no other choice but to raise funds by holding a yard sale yet the side effect of that was breaking the lease.

I’ve received a number of comments about the accident since Friday night. As the webmaster of AvaZinn.com, my obligation is to primarily inform people of Grant County, Indiana with this web site and entertain (such as Vote for the Girls and INNewsCenter). That obligation unfortunately, sometimes, includes uncomfortable subjects or comments that are difficult to hear or even make you angry–most of those comments were hurtful and at times disrespectful for a transgender woman nearing 34 years of age. And while this webmaster is human as well and we have similar reactions. These are situations we take very seriously.

By posting the live Facebook video Friday afternoon, you were able to get a third side of the story, the witness’ side. I wanted to give some insight into the mind of someone who happened to have witnessed the minor accident as it happened  so there was some context and exposure for you. For some, maybe it’s something you are already familiar with; for others it may be something you cannot even comprehend. It was difficult for many of us to watch and understand coming from the witness’ point of view. I’ve seen it way too many times since the day I moved to Marion from Van Buren on October 16, 1996.

The decision to post the live video on Facebook is just a small part in the existing commitment I made on May 26, 2001–the day I graduated from Mississinewa High School. That commitment did not change after I began a long transition to a woman in 2004.

Again, it is the reason why I do this web site and I hope you understand the tough choices we have to make in making the decision to go on Facebook Live. Like our viewers, we want 100 percent of the story.

Ava Zinn
Founder and Webmaster, AvaZinn.com since November 1, 1999

PS: After I watched the video back, I almost swore by saying “This is the f**king news” after I heard a car honk but instead I said, “Oh, crap.” I’ve posted part of the clip as “Ava Zinn – The Thug Life (OFFICIAL EDITED version)” on my YouTube channel and an unedited version has been donated to the ThugLifeVideos YouTube channel.

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