Another Close Call… (3/8/17)

The last time I attempted to take my own life, Joe Keenan was filling out the remainder of Frank O’Bannon’s second term as Governor of Indiana, George W. Bush was President, and yours truly, Ava Zinn had lived her final days living as a biological male.

Fourteen years later, unlike last time, I did not need psychiatric treatment but I took some corrective action after realizing there was something I just could not live without — a bed I’ve had since 1994 called a Sealy Craftsmatic. I’ve had that particular bed specifically built for my mother and inherited the bed on May 11, 2002.

Wednesday, someone from one organization had the audacity and the nerve to come in my home and basically didn’t like the bed’s condition and I made it clear it was fine the way it is. I was not going let someone force me to take that bed to the dumpster for any reason even though I have NEVER had bedbugs.

That really sat off a traumatic experience and I was not going to let that happen. I knew whatever solution that someone offer will not work, and therefore an unacceptable resolution, yet praised at the improvements I’ve made. That should have been enough if someone just did not stick their nose where it didn’t belong.

Wednesday night, I had to make a choice because I spent most of the day with a back injury the individual caused when I was forced to take a perfectly good bed to the dumpster because I NEVER GONE WITHOUT AND NEVER WILL GO WITHOUT A BED FOR ANY F**KING REASON. It was either suicide or put my bed back together — it was obviously my bed that give me nearly 25 years of service and I don’t believe even for one minute a Craftmatic bed should ever be thrown out until the day of one’s death.

I am considering suing the organization for my back injury they caused and since the bed wasn’t in my home I couldn’t rest at all until I recovered the bed from the dumpster.

I’ve posted this in the Facebook Transgender Alliance group….

TW (M2F)? Came close to suicide on March 8, 2017….
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but this transwoman went with her own gut instinct instead to retrieve something I just could not live without – a bed. A Sealy Craftsmatic I’ve had since 1994 and no plans of changing the mattress for any reason (the closest thing I’ve come up with has to be a DIY mattress).

Yesterday, someone came to my home and told me that I needed to replace my bed. Then I suffered a third back injury for the third time in 17 years, spending most of the day injured and traumatized (had been diagnosed with PTSD after going through three rapes).

Yet last night, I had to make a choice…

My death and the local newspaper’s headline as well as Indiana would have said “Vote for the Girls Founder and Webmaster Ava Zinn dead at 34”

… or…

Recover my bed and bring it back where it belongs. I obviously chose my bed, even though that same person made me throw out the bed (and I’VE NEVER HAD BEDBUGS and NEVER HAD ANY PROBLEMS) and I wasn’t going to let that happen and I was make sure I had one at all times 24/7 and then the second I went outside that little instinct of mine said “Get your bed out of the dumpster and restore it.”

I’m still alive obviously and the last time I’d encountered something like that was April 18, 1996. My friends know the story and I remember it like it was yesterday.

 

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About Ava Zinn

Owner of Aeverine Zinn Holdings Former retailer of NoSirGifts (1987-2011) Webmaster of INNewsCenter (1999-2011), Vote for the Girls USA (2010-present), Vote for the Girls UK (2013-present), and of course AvaZinn.com (1999-present)